Last night I was sitting in my lounge room reading my book. It was around 11:30pm. I heard footsteps on the gravel outside my house, then on my verandah. It was all within a few seconds. There are lots of cats that roam at night, so hearing noises is not unusual. But I knew this was different. I jumped up and turned the front light on. I opened the front door. I knew what they would have taken – cigarettes. And sure enough, my packet was gone from my seat. And so was the thief.
The problem with theft is the violation you feel. That someone thinks it is ok to enter your property and leave with things that don’t belong to them.
I don’t know about other Aspies but my home is my sanctuary. It’s my safe place. And the boundaries of it have been violated by a stranger. Sure, they could have made off with something more valuable. And yes, I probably shouldn’t have left my cigarettes outside. But neither of those things are the point.
I am super perceptive. I live in a very small town. I smoke outside on my verandah. It was nighttime and quite dark – the thief must have known exactly where he/she was going to get what he/she wanted, because it literally happened in seconds. Which means they were either watching me or noticed at another time I left them there. They could not have seen them last night, it cannot have been a random theft.
This makes me feel sick. And violated even more. I didn’t sleep much last night and I probably won’t for a few nights yet. Every noise is going to make me jump. What if someone decides they want to take something else of mine? What if they decide to try and enter my house?
I did call the police, and felt like an idiot for doing it. I don’t want the cigarettes returned – If they were that desperate for them I would have given them to them! What I want returned is my feeling of safety and security in my home. Do thieves realise they take more than just an object when they steal? Do they realise that for the few seconds of buzz they get from stealing they inflict hours/days/weeks/months worth of fear? They’re scum of the Earth.