I’ve been bouncing around the house the past week or so in a great mood; happy and positive with life and the direction I imagine it to be going and then …
In the form of anti-vaxxers on Twitter. Let’s just call them what they are – Autism Haters > haters of Autistics (AHNT’s I’ll call them – autism hating Neurotypicals).
I read some comments and got angry. My heart started pounding and up my anxiety flew. Enter fight mode. Two female AHNTs in particular were talking about (mocking) what they termed “severe Autistics”. Unfortunately (or fortunately probably) they blocked me so I cannot access their hater tweets. I probably should have been what they weren’t – respectful, and the bigger person – but, once my fight mode was activated, it was too late.
I know a gorgeous young boy (who I was lucky to call my step-son for a while) who fits into their “severe Autistic” category because he’s non-verbal. But what these haters fail to see are the exact things that made me fall in love with this little boy. (Side note: this was long before I had any idea that I was also Autistic, not that that makes a difference). They don’t see his smile and hear his giggles, they don’t see his eyes whilst they gaze at objects up close and him using objects to discover what they do for himself, they don’t see his insatiable curiosity, they don’t see him frolicking around outside and observing the world around him in his own beautiful way, they don’t see the wonderment and joy of his face from seemingly simple things such as bubbles being blown, they don’t see him communicate with his hands to let you know what he wants, they don’t see the excitement that spreads across his face when kids are playing and he joins in too, they don’t see or feel how beautiful the little moments are when he sits down close to you or allows you to touch him affectionately – that he trusts you and is showing you that in his own way. They certainly don’t see or feel how amazing it is to observe him being his authentic self with not a care in the world.
AHNTs don’t see any of this. Why? Because they see Autism – not the Autistic. They see disease not difference. They see injury not individual. They see trapped not freedom. They think they are helpful but they are harmful.
AHNTs seem to think that non-verbal Autistic people are “the issue” from what I gathered. An attack on any Autistic is an attack on us all. Considering a “type of Autistic” needing to be cured (read: eradicated) is imperialistic thinking. No one, and I mean NO ONE, has the right to judge “quality of life” of/in another individual. You don’t get to judge people’s lives based on your own version of “normality” and call it fact. I’m Autistic – I don’t speak for non-Autistics! Matter of fact, I don’t speak for all Autistics at all, ever! I speak for my Autistic self. My white, straight, female Autistic self.
It’s just so illogical to hate, even more illogical to hate a group of people based on something they were born as. Be it disability, sex, race, gender, etc! It. Just. Does. Not. Make. Sense. How many examples are there in the history books of hate ideology and the destruction this causes? When will humankind LEARN its damn lesson?
It’s amazing how when one thing pisses you off, other things do too. These little negativity cycles get me so frustrated at myself and the world. I’m feeling hot and flustered from having written all that right now. Self-care day today, feeling better already!