If only people were books.

Why are people so hard to read? People write books, why can’t people be like books? Why can’t people be open and honest like book characters? Maybe that’s why I read a lot of fiction, there’s generally no guess work involved, it’s all just *there*. Wouldn’t it be lovely if instead of having to listen, people had thought bubbles that popped up above their heads and we could read and understand it. Wouldn’t it be lovely if communication was simply words, honest straight forward words, instead of having to try and match the words with tone of voice, body language etc. 

I wish I could trust spoken words from other people but there’s just been so many cases that they’ve proved untrustworthy. I truly believe that actions speak louder than words. I place extreme importance on this in my life. Words can be lies, actions generally aren’t – showing someone you care about them is better than just telling them. Actions are (generally) solid evidence of follow through on words – which builds trust. If I am extremely angry, I will often say horrible things I don’t mean, but watch for the follow up. My apology, whilst I will voice it, will generally be found in my actions. You want to know if I care? See what I DO rather than what I SAY. I am not saying my words can’t be trusted but considering the amount of things I have constantly running through my head trying to make sense of it all, at times things are going to connect to things they shouldn’t, I’ll run with it because it makes sense, it doesn’t mean it’s “right” but it’s very hard to disconnect the dots (stress, fatigue, and past experience do not help with this process). So please let my actions show you that I care even when my words don’t match, as I figure myself out, I hope to get these two things on the same page. And never believe that my external appearance even gives you a glimpse into what goes on internally.

Ugh. Life is harder at times than others.

This entry was published on July 24, 2016 at 5:18 AM. It’s filed under Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Follow any comments here with the RSS feed for this post.

2 thoughts on “If only people were books.

  1. This is what my life is like, too! I find myself trying to apply literary character analysis to real people, and it just doesn’t work. I thought I was just broken, but maybe people in general are just weird. I’m beginning to think that’s true.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: